Autism… again.
Here I leave yet another doctors office after hearing those same words, different child.
I can honestly say I was simultaneously not at all surprised and still shocked. I mean, I couldn’t live in our house for the last 4 years and not have seen that coming, but I didn’t think it would come so fast. Sure, I had spent months on the paperwork side trying to get things done. Trying to find a way to help Monkey with his anger before something major happened. But spoken into the world in such a passing and casual way…
I didn’t know what to think.
Sure, I saw the similarities. But they are also SO different. Night and day different. But then isn’t that how it always is? One is sensory avoidant and the other is sensory seeking. One struggles with academics and the other is scary quick. One struggles with anxiety and the other one is so ADHD that I am tired. (That actually came as a side note, ‘Oh, and we are definitely dealing with ADHD, too.’ 😒 You think?) I know the school Psychologist said it last year, but I don’t think I really believed him. I honestly didn’t expect the Psychiatrist to agree so easily.
I didn’t know how to feel.
I could circle back to the millions of questions, but I have already spent too much time there.
It doesn’t change anything. He’s still the absolute funniest kid I know. He has the absolute best smile. He is the protector, the ‘Dragon Chaser’. The keeper of the time.
He can also be the angriest kid I have ever met. That is why we started down this path. No child should be that angry. But how do we help him tame that anger?
No, nothing has changed. But perhaps now we can move forward. Have more laughter and smiles than screaming and tears.
That is my hope for my our future. But, I am pretty sure we are going to need more coffee first.
MamaBean Az 