Why Did I Think This Would Get Easier?

Why did I think this would get easier as they got older? When they were little and had no language, I remember thinking….When they get older it will be easier. When Mr. Man learns to talk the meltdowns will lessen and things will be easier. When Monkey isn’t a toddler, dealing with Mr. Man’s behaviors will be easier.60002327_10215851453573427_6452811242636574720_o

Well, the behaviors have changed, but is it easier? No. Sadly, no.

It’s been a rough few weeks in our world. We seem to have fallen into a pattern. We have periods when we see amazing growth and progress. Then, we hit a wall. Progress halts, behaviors increase and this Mama finds herself in a dark, low place. This is where I find myself now. Mr. Man has ‘hit a wall’ as we refer to it. He’s older, language is doing amazingly, meltdowns have lessened, but it isn’t easier. It’s just different. Meltdowns have been replaced with attitude, defiance, obsessions, and other exhausting and frustrating behaviors. His deficits are more obvious to those outside our world, and that brings a whole new set of issues to struggle with. Add to this, Monkey has been dealing with his own struggles about which Mama has had to open her eyes and deal with. I 45066103_10214433495645365_5884390132240351232_oknow we will walk through this and come out the other side. I know we will walk through more valleys along the way, too. But for now, I must wrestle, and come to terms, with the fact that it isn’t going to get easier.

Maintaining Mama’s sanity while dealing with mental and neurodevelopmental disorders is HARD. Rest in the valley’s Mamas. Don’t make camp, but rest. Climbing the mountains is hard, the views are worth it! 

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4 responses to “Why Did I Think This Would Get Easier?

  1. Karla Cook

    It does seem like the challenges are ever shifting as we are on this parenting journey. Some things do get easier, but it seems like they are usually replaced by other things that are just as challenging if not more so. Like you said, it’s worth it! Hang in there!

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  2. It always seems like the new challenges are all the more challenging. But the reward is worth it like you said. Praying that life starts to go more smoothly!

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  3. That can be a really tough realization. I do think the climb is worth the work.

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  4. Praying for you as you climb the mountain! Yes, it does seem that with every hurdle crossed another one comes into view. God’s grace os sufficient, something I have to remind myself daily!

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