Why…why do I seem so hesitant to write/post when I know how important it is? To myself and to that mom who might be at the beginning of her journey feeling alone and wondering if there is hope (I have been there). I know it’s important….so why do I find myself consistently failing at it? I’ve come up with a few reasons…..
1. I don’t have the answers! It is so hard to put into words what you are doing and what you are going through when you don’t even know if you are doing the right thing! What is the right thing? I am certain what is right for us isn’t necessarily going to be right for another family. It might be, but more likely it won’t. For that matter, I don’t even know what IS right for us.
2. How do I share our experiences honestly, openly, without overstepping the line to my son’s privacy?
So, among all the other things life has been throwing in front of me the past few months, these are the things I have been struggling with, the things that have kept me from hitting the publish button.
So here’s a little of what I have come up with. There is no manual….there may not even be a right or a wrong! What might be right for one season may change and be the wrong thing the next season….isn’t life great! The point is, my goal, to share our journey and help encourage others who find themselves on their own journey and hopefully something will give them hope, peace and strength to continue finding their way on their journey. Sometimes I can be completely transparent and sometimes I will need to omit details to respect Mr. Man’s privacy. Heaven help me be mindful of this and may my children forgive me when I fail.
Update on Mr. Man.
So, we’ve made a major change to our life this past week and we’ll see how that adventure turns out. Due to several personal family situations we decided to pull Mr. Man out of Kindergarten and finish the 4th quarter at home. Even though I realize the extra amount of work this is going to add to this Mama’s day, I have an amazing sense of calmness and peace now that the decision has been made. We will take some time to give Mr. Man his Spring Break, decompress, adjust to our new daily routine and start fresh in a couple of weeks. 
Mr. Man has made some amazing social progress at school and we are extremely happy with this. We loved the school and teachers. For these reasons, I tortured myself debating if we were making the right choice. In the end, logic and a long list of pros made the decision obvious. While I don’t think Mr. Man has a full understanding of what this means, he is thrilled at the idea that he doesn’t have to go back to school.
My first goal is to unlearn some bad habits and behaviors that have entered our lives this year, and find my happy boy. My second goal is to finish the year focusing in on a few specific, foundational academic areas that Mr. Man is still struggling with. Wish me luck!
MamaBean Az 